Fri, Jan 30, 2004 - 8:48 a.m.

I was just watching a special on Sex TV called "Losing It", and it really intrigued me. It was all about losing your virginity and basically what that means for girls...and it really got me thinking.

On the show it had a virgin with her boyfriend and she was saving herself for marriage. The couple explained how they did EVERYTHING sexually except intercourse and she expressed that she thought oral sex was like "doing a favour for the other person...you really don't get anything out of it". Her saying that made me think how glad I was to have experienced something as sacred as sex. She just didn't get it. I mean two people who care about each other (or for me LOVE each other) simultaneously pleasuring one another...it's such a fulfilling experience.

One virgin guy (who had never so much as held a womans hand) expressed that sex was like "losing a part of your soul". I couldn't disagree more...yet I haven't slept with more than a couple of guys.

I am a virgin whore.

I was known as a "tease" in highschool. I didn't give it up for ANYONE! I didn't even have a boyfriend until I was 18 (many others tried)...and I wouldn't give him sex until I was "ready" (5 months into our relationship). I've been called a slut for dressing provocatively when I was younger (although it was nothing compared to what girls where these days). I am your basic virgin whore, Britney Spears. (You know I love saying that).

Since I lost my virginity I have never felt more comfortable in my own skin. It was a very special/spiritual experience (even though it was with my ex) and I've never regretted it. I completely believe that my sexual experiences have helped me become the strong person that I am today. It made me become more outgoing and outspoken because it helped me grow into my skin and be comfortable in the most vulnerable state possible: naked. I can be naked and at the same time be naughty and I can let go of any inhibitions.

loveb