Tue, Dec 10, 2002 - 9:17 a.m.

I got drunk on Saturday night at Nick's house with his friends. After they left we had "some more fun" then fell asleep in his bed together. It felt so nice. To be honest, it felt just normal. Good, and normal. I like that I could just roll over and put my arm around someone warm who would then whisper "I love you Baby" in my ear.

Sunday we spent the day together. We made breakfast, had "some more fun", got dressed and went to the mall. We got our picture taken in the booth and I bought myself Britney Spears' book "STAGES" after Nick reassured me that I deserved it with all the working I've been doing lately. It wasn't on my Christmas list so I knew no one would have bought it for me. Then we went out for lunch and he dropped me off early because he had to study for Monday's exam.

It was retarded but I was like going through withdrawal Sunday night. I called him like 3 times. "Hey Baby, what are you doing? Do you miss me?". I need to get a life. I don't know how to relax anymore. I MUST BE DOING SOMETHING AT ALL TIMES you see. It's just the way it is with me. I feel like a lazy bum if I sit around for more than an hour without doing something productive. Like today for example. After I write this I am going to go get dressed then go to the library to return some books (they were reeeally good ones "The Luckiest Girl In The World" and "Stick Figure") and get some more out. Then I'm walking to work and working out for an hour before my shift starts at 1 p.m. After work Nick is picking me up around 8 or 9 p.m.

I went coat shopping with my mom yesterday and we had a hell of a time. Actually I did have fun, but no luck with coats. You see I have this problem where I am pretty tall (5'7") and I have long legs and arms; yet I am very thin. My mom couldn't believe it when the extra small pea coat from Fairweather didn't even fit my frame (the shoulders fell off of mine, and swallowed me whole!), yet the arms of the coat were half way to my elbows. "You are so small Grace, we are going to have a hard time finding something that fits you". Luckily Nick and I are planning to move to California in a few years so I won't have to put up with this dumb winter weather eventually. At the mall I was very bad and also bought myself a really cute hat from bluenotes (the one 'Britney' is wearing in the Cry Me A River video), and a top from American Eagle that fit like a fucking glove and makes me boobs look really nice.

Nick wrote me a poem last night, which was really special just because he said he's never done that before. Aarron used to wrote me love notes ALL THE TIME (I've never written one myself either)...but he said he felt inspired. It's a really sweet, personal poem, and I'm in love with it. I love the way he loves me.

Even though I've been listening to them for over a month my songs on rotation right now are Justin's "Cry Me A River" and my ongoing favourite INOJ's "Love You Down Remix"---I can't get enough of these songs! I just keep listening to them over and over and over and over....

lovegrace