Tue, Jan 25, 2005 - 12:17 a.m.

As usual, don't know where to begin. Lets break things down to make it easier.

Career: Ok things have been rocky in this department lately. I have been working (as a Customer Service Rep) ALOT lately, and absolutely hating it! I decided I hate school and it sucks, and I just don't see my life going anywhere with the program I am in line for....so I have been thinking alot more about "Flight Attendant" lately. When I took that "Career Development" course last spring "Flight Attendant" was the conclusion I came to, after all of the personality testing and so on. I forgot about it a little when I started dating Marcos and then Chris because they were so into the city I live in and their lives were here...but now that I'm technically single I am dreaming so much bigger than this shit-ass town. I NEED to get out...I NEED change and excitement. I am bilingual and have the Customer Service background that airlines are looking for. The only thing I lack is a college diploma (which isn't a requirement, but nonetheless and asset).
SOooo to cut to the chase, I sent 2 resumes in to airlines last week, and filled out one application. I wasn't expecting much, but to my surprise a woman from and airline called my house yesterday regarding the Flight Attendant position!! OHMYGOD. I missed another call today..but she left a message on my cell phone and I'm calling her first thing in the morning tomorrow. I'm already stressing out a little, but I know I have to take a deep breath and realize that I need to stop being afraid of change and take a leap of faith. I know that this is my destiny. I need to get out of here!!
The day before I got the phone call I rented "View from the Top"...that movie with Gwyneth Paltrow about Flight Attendants...and I got really stoked when I realized that this is my calling...so you can imagine how excited I was to get a call back the next day! Woah..please God let this one happen for me. I've been sooo depressed lately. I saw on the news that today is mathematically the most depressing day of the year.... :(

Moving on...

Love: So I don't know if I've written about my latest "love interest"...but he was someone I was super-excited about in the beginning, but has been letting me down lately. I go through up's and down's with this guy and I'm not sure what the fuck is going on. I like him, he seems to REALLY like me when we're together (he persued me actually)....but we go days without speaking and when that amount of time goes by I kind of lose interest. Anyway, I'm not going to tie myself down anyway because I could be leaving the city to work in the big T.O.!! God willing.

Family: Things at home are basically OK. My cousin (and best friend) have been rocky lately...getting into a HUGE fight on Friday...me not caring about anything in this city hasn't made me eager to maintain what we have. I don't know..sometimes she's such a downer. She's got no job, no car, no education and sometimes I feel like she's dragging me down with her. I do all the driving when we go out, and she often ends up skanking it up and embarassing me at the bar. I think I need to focus on my future right now, and she always wants to talk about what we're going to do and how we're going to move away, but she is SO NOT proactive. She's one of those people who is ALL TALK.

A few other notes:
- I need to quit smoking...I don't know why I started this summer.
- Cathie is getting married in 2 months and I'm going to DOMINICAN...YAY! I need to sell more Stag & Doe tickets pronto!
- Not sure whether or not to go to New Orleans with the parents in March...won't be much fun when it's not Mardi Gras and I've got no one to party it up with down there.
- Chipped my tooth last Saturday (My 22nd Birthday)...thank God I got it fixed and I look normal again..I was white trash for a whole day (refused to go anywhere except McDonalds drive through).

Well that's about it for now, leave me a comment in my guestbook if you have anything decent to say.

LOVEGRACE