Fri, Nov 22, 2002 - 8:22 p.m.

I just received a compliment from a girl at work that will keep me smiling for the next few hours.

Well, clearly, you've realized that I admire Britney Spears. Her picture almost always is plastered on my website and I've seen her live twice, and basically I think she's freaking gorgeous. I was telling this to Meggie at work a few minutes ago and she was shocked and went on and on about how I am so much prettier than her. This probably sounds really stupid and insignificant right now but the way she said it and the things she said (my face shape, my nose, etc. were so much more attractive) just totally made my day. "Seriously Grace, I you know me, I mean what I'm saying". Funny thing is, when I'm at the gym, around her, is when I don't even give a CRAP what I look like.

Other boosts to my self-esteem yesterday and today:

-I was asked out twice on the bus, and was given yet ANOTHER piece of paper with a guy's address and phone number on it (he watches me sit down, pulls out a pad and starts writing on it...I fuckin' knew it was happening AGAIN!). Haha -- Nick was so mad.

-Little things Nick said while I was out with him yesterday like splurting out "God Grace, I love you so much" in the middle of a story I was telling him at Williams.

-Watching myself doing BODYPUMP today...I looked really good (even though I've gained 1 1/2 pounds -- but my bodyfat % is the same...so does that mean it's muscle???)

-The fact that no other girl I know has found a man decent enough to treat her with respect and like she's the most precious, gorgeous thing in existence.

ughh people are going to hate me for this entry

if it makes you feel any better I threw up again today....I can't get my fucking act together

what the hell is my deal????

i just want to be perfect

lovegrace