Tue, Jul 22, 2003 - 3:44 p.m.

I believe in God!

Finally it seems my life is twisting in the right direction.

Drama has returned...

I may have a modeling job in Japan in September!! I talked to the owner of the agency in my town yeseterday (Nicky at work has connections with her) and she sounds really gung-ho about using me for Japan. She doesn't have enough small girls with hip ratio of under 36. Nicky measured me at work and I'm 34. If she likes my look I'll have my first MAJOR modeling job. She needs girls with a height of 5'7 for Japan (I'm like a fraction of an inch under that) but she says it's still a posibility. I pray to God this works out! I want this so bad I can taste it!

Major news #2: Aarron (the ex) called me yesterday. UGH! He said he's called me several times but never got through to me and was afraid to leave a message. Apparently he thinks about me lots and blah blah blah he wants to get together with me for coffee sometime. (He now lives an hour away). I told him off and asked him why I would possibly want to hang out with him when when I'm with someone who makes me so happy. I think he's just lonely (he hasn't had a girlfriend since me pretty much). I don't need someone like him screwing up my life. I don't want to see him at all; although (to be honest) I wouldn't mind him seing ME since I look so different with my more fit body (I lost like 5 lbs when we broke up and never gained it back) and my long blonde hair (extensions) which he's never seen me with. I've grown up alot since I last saw him. After all I was still a teenager then...things have really changed. I don't know what this is really all about; but that boy makes me suspicious.

News #3: One year baby! Nick and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary (of our first date) on August 2nd! I love him so much! Sometimes he just says these things that are so sincere and so honest that I know he's for real. This is real love.

Enough cheesiness; we've taken the weekend off work and we're staying two nights in some big hotel in Niagara Falls. It has a hot tub and a king sized bed and everything. We're both pretty excited. :)

Big news #4: Shoot me but HANSON is coming back to the T.O.!!! To me, this is excitement of the nostalgic kind. Hanson is my teenage crush band; and since they've totally plumetted in the music industry they're playing at tiny ass clubs!! I get to see them at the Guvrnment and I'm pissing my pants excited. Who gives a fuck if Taylor has a wife and baby and Zac's fat and Isaac's a lunatic---I love them and they rock my world. So on August 16th I'm praying something exciting will happen. This sounds ridiculous I know...Lindsay and Jessica and I are driving up Saturday afternoon...the concert starts at 6 p.m. We rock.

That's what's new with me. I'm going to FLOW tonight and for a tan (Nick's working all day). I'm starting to diet for the modeling thing. I just want to be under 110 by the beginning of August.

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