Thu, Feb 13, 2003 - 11:50 a.m.

For the second night in a row I woke up from a steamy dream with a hot dude who is NOT my boyfriend. HMM...

Nick picked me up last night and we went out for coffee and then Christened the OTHER car. We hadn't seen each other in 3 days okay! (What the fuck is with these damn pop-ups lately?? Is anyone else annoyed by them?) Anyway, he looked sooo adorably hot and kept saying these sweet things, and what do I do? I come home and dream about another guy.

Yesterday while I was in the spinning class I had a major scare. I've been pretty bad lately (puking every day pretty much) and my stomach felt funny from an episode I'd had hours earlier. There I am on the bike with sharp jabbing pains in my stomach when one shoots through my back into my stomach and everything goes numb. I was so scared....I thought I was going to have a heart attack or something. I appologized to the instructor and got off my bike. I decided it wasn't worth risking my life to finish a good cardio work-out. In the end I did finish my cardio work-out on a less intense bike while paying careful attention to my breathing, back and stomach.

I think I'd better stop fucking up because I just can't afford it anymore. I'm scaring myself.

LoveGrace