Mon, Nov 10, 2003 - 11:15 p.m.

Oooh things are heating up!

The girlfriends I've made at the gym (other trainers, etc.) are really cool girls and we all went out last Thursday night.

Things with Nick weren't so great, so I was eager to drink and forGET!

Me and Cal started out with Gin and Sprite and then did two tequila shots each at Anne's house. Cal is majorly cronic, so we had a bowl in the car on the way to the club. When we got there Calli (who is rich and very insecure) began buying the two of us NON-STOP shots for the next few hours....and that's all I remember. Seriously. According to my friends I was going up to everyone and chatting up all kinds of cute guys. Apparently Calli and I fell over at one point, which would explain the mysterious bruises on my legs. Honestly I wish I had more to talk about, but I honestly have no recolection of my night--which sort of made it a waste. I definitely paid for it though--I had to call in sick Friday because I honestly could not leave my bed. It was THE WORST HANGOVER I've ever experienced. It felt like my head was going to explode. My mom was a doll, and cancelled the house showing for the day (...update...we've got an offer now), and rented me THE BEST MOVIE "Big Girl's Don't Cry". I was mostly better by Saturday.

Now...back to the HEATING UP I was talking about. Things are a little messy.

Saturday night I was pissed at Nick. He said he and his friends would meet up with me at the bar I was going to with Cathie--then shafted me.

I just got this new MAC makeup that is killer, and my hair has been wicked lately, so I felt pretty fuckin' confident (or as one guy told me "hot as hell!"). After hanging at the first bar for a while (and seeing my manager..ahhh); we moved on to another bar that Cath loves--and ran into a few of Nick's friends, and ended up hanging out with them all night. They bought us drinks and this one guy and I really chatted alot. I think we may have gotten too close....we danced together...he told me he thinks I'm absolutely gorgeous (various times) and I think he kissed me. Lordy, he even introduced me to his very cool family. His mom LOVES ME, we chatted for like half an hour--she told me that I'm absolutely beautiful. I can't even properly explain the experience (I was drinking alot after all). I felt funny about it the next day when I had sobered up.

Apparently he called Nick today, and Nick told me that he "sounded weird". Fuckkkk.

Anyhow, Sunday Nick and I hung out all day and things were good. We ate Chinese food, watched Sopranos and had sex. It was all good.

It's also all good at the gym...if things stay okay with Nick and my social life then I just might be ok. Now I just have a few things on my list that I need to accomplish; and I'll be on the right track.

Lovegrace