Fri, Nov 29, 2002 - 9:04 p.m.

I've been feeling really shitty and rather depressed lately. I don't know exactly what my problem is...I feel like there isn't enough time in my day. By the time I wake up and eat...I end up puking...and that takes up a hell of a lot of time. I have to stop. It's so easy now though. Fuck I'm stupid.

I was supposed to go to my company's Christmas party tonight but didn't have enough energy when I got out of the shower to get ready. I felt sooo tired. I went to sleep....that felt really nice.

I'm going to call Nick shortly because he doesn't know I didn't go to the party and hopefully we can hang out tonight. I haven't seen him since Tuesday...and I miss him.

I always go though these high's and low's...but this low is pretty extreme. I need to get up again. I've been isolating myself too much lately. It's like...home, work, home, work. Nick's really busy because of finals and everything and I'm sort of living in my own little world lately. I'm living in my head...and I'm driving myself INSANE...I neeeeed something. I just don't know what that is right now.

Ugh

lovegrace