Mon, Jan 20, 2003 - 11:02 a.m.

I'm feeling a little off. I want passion. I want fucking mystery, excitement, I want to really FEEL something!

I'm just feeling a little ordinary and depressed lately. Nick and I watched this episode of Sopranos (2nd last episode in the first season) where Tony is really depressed--and I totally felt like I could relate to him. Am I really depressed??? I just hate this freezing godawful Southern Ontario weather and everything in my life that has become so routine.

Nothing FEELS right anymore. I feel kind of just numb alot and it's really scary. I used to be such a passionate little girl. Now I'm just a blah 20 year old. Save me.

**About the BODY FAT % question--it can be tested two ways. One is to have a professional use calipers (pincher-type tongs) to measure the fat on your body manually. The second way (the way I use because my gym has one) is this special scale that asks you your height, and if you are athletic, clothed, etc.... then it sends a low electric jolt through your body (through your feet and hands that are touching metal on the scale) and measures what's what in your body. It can tell how much is water, fat and muscle. Measuring your body fat better because muscle weighs more than fat--so regular scales can be misleading.

;) Hope that helped.

Here's a picture of me and my sisters when we were little (I'm in the middle with my step-Grandpa):