Fri, Jan 03, 2003 - 10:33 a.m.

Running through my head....it is not enough

New years was GOOD. I guess Nicky boy wanted to make it special (I was making it abundently clear that I've never had a GOOD new years eve experience) because when he picked me up and brought me back to his house, his room was all candlelit and made to look like a cozy restaurant. He had made yummy food and had this 7% alcohol champagne that totally buzzed me out after downing just one glass. We finished the bottle, took lots of pictures, then started drinking vodka & O.J. Then John picked us up and drove us to the party (not a huge thing...pretty modest). While there we continued to drink vodka and also had some impossibly strong jell-o shooters. Needless to say I was pretty fucking buzzed the whole night. The whole time is basically a blur, John quizzing me about Seinfeld, Drew leaving with some nasty tom boy (who he fucked in the basement), the tom boy's best friend telling me I'm "SOOO PRETTY!" and then crying when she found out her friend and Drew were fucking in the basement....and kissing Nick at midnight. Kissing him is the best, especially taking into consideration that I'm not really a "kissy" kind of girl...all that saliva, just ew...but I don't mind it with him. Kissing is only good when you're having those close feelings behind it....it just feels good and right.

I slept over at Nick's house....I had my period so..yeah....but like I've said before, I love everything about laying with him. He was barfing his guts out all morning which was not good, poor thing. I felt sick but (oddly enough..hehe..) I didn't puke once (kinda wish I had though).

We hung out all day, went to the movies (The Hot Chick...with my Toronto lover Rob Sneider), then he dropped me off and I passed out. I had a staff meeting at 7:30 the next morning.

Before I forget it I had a dream about Taylor and David and Nick last night! Holy shit, when I think about it those are the three guys I've sort of "liked" most in my life. Anyway I was at a museum and I ran into David and his friends and was totally showing off. Nick had a black eye and dreads in my dream (he looked like Jacob from OTOWN ahhh!haha), and now I forget what Tay did in the dream....that was pretty pointless.

Something is supposed to be "going on" at the Rev or something tonight. Blah I hate organizing stuff like this. I'll have to go make some phone calls before work. I do feel like dancing though....I always feel like dancing.

yes i've lost my mind

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