Thu, Aug 28, 2003 - 5:14 p.m.

Could it be...I'm actually happy?!

Last night I lay in bed after I got off the phone with Nick and smiled to myself and thought "Wow I actually feel blissfully happy right now!"

I think it's a combination of things: becoming a personal trainer; taking steps towards modeling; and being in a really happy place with Nick. We've been soo happy and close lately; no fighting at all!

Another major thing is my bedroom. It's SPOTLESS for the first time since like grade 11 (where everything went downhill). Mom's taking me to IKEA on Friday because she said she would if i EVER cleaned my room. New bedspread, dresser, curtains etc. ought to create some much needed change for me.

When I cleaned my room the other day I REALLY CLEANED it!! I got rid of SO MUCH STUFF that I feel this incredible sense of relief now that it's all gone. It was just junk that I had accumulated since high school. I had 5 garbage bags full of SHIT to go out that night. It was great!

I'll talk about the modeling thing next time. I'm VERY EXCITED! :)

I'm on break...gotta go work.

LoveGrace