Sun, Aug 17, 2003 - 9:27 a.m.

OOooh you have NO IDEA what an ANNOYING couple of days I've had.

Be prepared...I am going to complain and rant now:

FREAKING POWER!!! The lights went out in the middle of my shift on Thursday, which was fine, whatever, I got to go home early..cool. But there was nothing to do...no power=no fun. I sat around with Selena and the baby until it got dark. I talked on the phone with Nick a bit, then went to bed...blah. Friday morning there was still no power, so I couldn't go to the gym as I had planned. I could just go on and on about how shitty the weekend was.

SO I WILL: Yesterday, again I was supposed to go to the other gym and workout--but it was closed until Monday!! Whatever...it's Sunday and I'm HERE AT MY GYM WORKING!! Everything is and was fine (power-wise) so what the fuck!??! I was also SUPPOSED to be at the Hanson concert yesterday (if anyone remembers) but they "postpond" it on us!! GOddamnit--I just got my hair done (after much freaking out when I couldn't even wash it at home) and it looks AMAZING (slightly darker blonde, longer extensions)..but I have NO WHERE to go!!! I have no friends and Nick is boring as hell. I know he's a great boyfriend, so loyal and all that but he never wants ANY EXCITEMENT! Why do I soooo crave excitement? Sometimes having a steady relationship REALLY SUCKS!!! He doesn't like going to the bar 'cause I get hit on too much; all he ever wants to do is go to his BED!!

Jesus!

I cried my eyes out last night; I was freaking out...Saturday night and all I did was watch TV and sit around on my ass!

On a good note I've lost weight--I'm like 107 or so which is the lowest I've been in a long time. I've been eating minimal carbs (pretty much Atkins) and it's totally working for me. I have low blood-sugar and often crave sugar so eating no carbs makes me feel so much better and TIGHTER...like I feel like I've firmed up everywhere, especially my stomach. My stomach has never been tighter and flatter. I need to get those pictures taken so I can send them into the Farmone model search.

I watched True Romance again the other day. Alabama rocks.

I hate everyone today.

lovegrace